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I've been feeling restless lately. I have this desire to start changing things. I want to re-do the junk room into a home office. I want to re-do the warped floor in the bedroom. I'm thinking of taking some free online classes on topics that interest me. I want to make a hundred little changes in my life, but ...

I'm feeling kind of trapped. I can't do the big things without help, and no one but me has an interest in them. And all the little things are probably pointless and will never stick because, face it, look who you're talking to. And I just ... I don't know.

I'd like to talk about it, but I feel stupid. Everyone else has other things going on. And nobody, not even me, wants to sit down and hash through this ... this ennui.